oh how fragile we are

i stand in absolute awesomeness and awe staring out at the life we live.. Yet a tear wells up from the corner of my aye (eye).. we oscillate between happiness and sadness at the drop of a hat, when we speak of we who do we speak of, in general we speak of the the general we, not of the specific we and definitely not of the Wii.. Heavens no, there is a life beyond the puta screen and definitely the TV screen.

what is it we hold dear to ourselves about our existence in this mortal coil or is it on this mortal coil.. cannot really be sure at this stage. Standing from a far i must apologize about certain misconceptions and preconceptions and illusions i may have ahd about certain things, and this wil be cryptic to protect those and myself..

But there are things that supprise me both in the positive and the negative about being human, humanity and my impression of others or my humanity. Somethings amaze me and disappoint me. There are things that I am clearer about, there are things i am sure about. so where to now, quo Vardis, like before we can never be sure which way the wind blows, like before i am not sure .. i just don't know.. but there are things which resonate and other things that leave me cold..

one being one thing i always contended to.. i hope that is the opposite of contesting? :-) That being that I would not subscribe to views of expats of my own origin.. expats are wonderful in terms of the diversity of life, spirit, baggage and ideas they drag forwards like heavy pack horses not leaving their burdens behind.. But these burdens are those things which form them and those who interact with them.. directly and indirectly. with this i do, however, categorically want to state that the notion of holding onto things in the past should at best be a bad thought in terms of culture and origins other than that they are things that form us .. this is now spiraling into an argument which can be seen from to many sides.. do not get me wrong in terms of the value that new ideas bring into a society and interactions of various memes and the growth in though that it creates, but remaining in a meme can lead to dead end in terms of the evolution of thought and the adaptation to an environment which is different from where the meme originated. sometimes memes need to change, sometimes they must stay the same to hold dear those things which are off value. But beware when the meme is more overpowering than the reality of the appropriate interaction required. I must apologize for the randomness and un-constructedness of the current discussion which i will have to re-think and re-enter .. we are making breakfast .. and there is noise and confusion and requirements for me to interact on a more human level and not through the threads of thoughts emanating from the tips of my fingers ..

ok more later on salt and life and thoughts and pillars of society and change and people and the value of friendship new and old and rekindled.