All things wild and wonderful, all things bright and beautiful, all things wild and wonderful.
All things grey like the flint grey sky
where does the weirdness come from? Where does it go at night? Onto the streets and into our minds.. slowly gnawing away at the sensibilities within our brain. Adding in etOH and all proverbial hell breaks lose at the seams of existence. well not always, just sometimes. How much of our perspective is based on our perspective of normality? Where does the illusive normal part of the curve of our existence lie on the continuum of life....
this was started some time ago ..
yes we are at that time of the year again .. a time for reflection..
time to wonder about the year passed and the year lying in front of us..
what to wonder about? do we have to wonder or can we treat it like the continuum it is? or is there an actual stasis and rebirth at this time of the year or is that all just marketing :-)
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Saturday, December 19, 2009
and the storm winds blew
and the storm winds blew
the wind pulled writhingingly through my number 2 hair style..
standing under the deep blue and purple clouds
the wind tearing at the soul
pulling, pushing and moving me
moving everything around me
the earth the sky everything moves
the leaves tear in the wind
the wind pulled writhingingly through my number 2 hair style..
standing under the deep blue and purple clouds
the wind tearing at the soul
pulling, pushing and moving me
moving everything around me
the earth the sky everything moves
the leaves tear in the wind
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
the essence of timing
Much of what we experience in life comes down to the poetry of timing, life weaves it endless waves and lines through the dimension we call time turning certainties in uncertainties and visa versa...
I was watching Californication last night, what a series with an amazing script, but what resonated most with me was the inevitability of his characters self destruction and how the reality of life permeated through his character, yes it is obtuse and in a fair portion of society vulgar and exhibitionistic.. it still rings true for all of us in that there are always consequences to events in life, both good and bad.. seemingly no different to the SECRET, yet showing the flipside of the coin. No matter how much the intent to change exists, the underlying basis of ones personality will permeate through your existence... bringing me to one of my pet concerns, which has an underlying thread through my existence.. my questioning of the value of these quick self help mind "correction" books like the secret, paulo cohelo books and the likes where the author spurts or exacuates common sense labeled as infinite wisdom and truths? This may be my academic trainign, if i can call it that, the in bred drive to question the reality and perception of life as i experience it? Who knows? Maybe they do have value?
Can things ever be taken at face value? or is there a deeper hidden meaning in things we experience around us, or is that merely a construct of the thing we call our mind?
There is no knowing ?
We have to consider all that goes on around us and chose if that
{
Ah now after Blogis interuptis I continue on the path of rambling along.. a day or so later}
?? no idea what i was saying there :-)
but one would imagine that something in the lines of
which we perceive around us is what it is, how complicated is life, how much belongs to things we can change? how much is controlled in another sphere we cannot control?
Can we influence our life? One would imagine that what we can do is not impact on our lives negatively.. one would imagine that this is something in the lines of what the authors of the "secret" were trying to say. You can stop making your life worse, which in turn makes it better, but changing things in another way is far more difficult, we can remove the hand brake on our lives and continue forward in the direction that our inertia pushes us .. yes one would image that we can moderately alter the way we experience our life, but there are certain things that we cannot change .. if we are born with one leg, we can only experience life with one leg .. but there are contradictions to this .. namely the Blade runner .. he was born with legs but lost them at a very young age .. and yet he can still activly participate in athletics .. suppose that is a testament to human nature...
But the question we have to ask is? Do we all have this ability or not, one would imagine that there is predisposition for this in all of our make up.. But we are often bound by the way our life has turned out.. we can do what we can, but that is a contradiction..
I suppose we can all bootstrap ourselves much further than we could imagine, I suspect it is the amount we can bootstrap ourselves, all within the milieu of chaos and predestination and the amount we allow ourselves to compete in the game of life..
This brings me to an analogy I was just briefly considering...
Flyfishing .. we can learn the skills and we can cast and catch fish.. But what determines how much and how large a fish we can capture? when three people of similar skill levels go fishing for a determinate period of time, why is it that certain people can catch more or larger fish? How does that work? we all stand casting our lines ... catch fish, no it is not that we all dont catch or do catch fish.. but one person has a purple patch? How is that explained? things are chaotic and random, yet not..
Someone standing on the outside notices that we are all using the same skills and are dealing with the same environmental variables, "But our catch rates differ throughout the day and the weekend.. Yes there is an element of skill.. there is an element of confidence.. Now there is a paradoxical statement.. how is it possible for me to say that?> It is a very strange perception. FF has a lot to do with confidence.. it does not always pay off, but if we truly believe we will catch the bigger fish.. and the many fish or should i rather say much fish like my children..
will have to think a little more on this and try to write this more coherently.. but for now this is enough..
I was watching Californication last night, what a series with an amazing script, but what resonated most with me was the inevitability of his characters self destruction and how the reality of life permeated through his character, yes it is obtuse and in a fair portion of society vulgar and exhibitionistic.. it still rings true for all of us in that there are always consequences to events in life, both good and bad.. seemingly no different to the SECRET, yet showing the flipside of the coin. No matter how much the intent to change exists, the underlying basis of ones personality will permeate through your existence... bringing me to one of my pet concerns, which has an underlying thread through my existence.. my questioning of the value of these quick self help mind "correction" books like the secret, paulo cohelo books and the likes where the author spurts or exacuates common sense labeled as infinite wisdom and truths? This may be my academic trainign, if i can call it that, the in bred drive to question the reality and perception of life as i experience it? Who knows? Maybe they do have value?
Can things ever be taken at face value? or is there a deeper hidden meaning in things we experience around us, or is that merely a construct of the thing we call our mind?
There is no knowing ?
We have to consider all that goes on around us and chose if that
{
Ah now after Blogis interuptis I continue on the path of rambling along.. a day or so later}
?? no idea what i was saying there :-)
but one would imagine that something in the lines of
which we perceive around us is what it is, how complicated is life, how much belongs to things we can change? how much is controlled in another sphere we cannot control?
Can we influence our life? One would imagine that what we can do is not impact on our lives negatively.. one would imagine that this is something in the lines of what the authors of the "secret" were trying to say. You can stop making your life worse, which in turn makes it better, but changing things in another way is far more difficult, we can remove the hand brake on our lives and continue forward in the direction that our inertia pushes us .. yes one would image that we can moderately alter the way we experience our life, but there are certain things that we cannot change .. if we are born with one leg, we can only experience life with one leg .. but there are contradictions to this .. namely the Blade runner .. he was born with legs but lost them at a very young age .. and yet he can still activly participate in athletics .. suppose that is a testament to human nature...
But the question we have to ask is? Do we all have this ability or not, one would imagine that there is predisposition for this in all of our make up.. But we are often bound by the way our life has turned out.. we can do what we can, but that is a contradiction..
I suppose we can all bootstrap ourselves much further than we could imagine, I suspect it is the amount we can bootstrap ourselves, all within the milieu of chaos and predestination and the amount we allow ourselves to compete in the game of life..
This brings me to an analogy I was just briefly considering...
Flyfishing .. we can learn the skills and we can cast and catch fish.. But what determines how much and how large a fish we can capture? when three people of similar skill levels go fishing for a determinate period of time, why is it that certain people can catch more or larger fish? How does that work? we all stand casting our lines ... catch fish, no it is not that we all dont catch or do catch fish.. but one person has a purple patch? How is that explained? things are chaotic and random, yet not..
Someone standing on the outside notices that we are all using the same skills and are dealing with the same environmental variables, "But our catch rates differ throughout the day and the weekend.. Yes there is an element of skill.. there is an element of confidence.. Now there is a paradoxical statement.. how is it possible for me to say that?> It is a very strange perception. FF has a lot to do with confidence.. it does not always pay off, but if we truly believe we will catch the bigger fish.. and the many fish or should i rather say much fish like my children..
will have to think a little more on this and try to write this more coherently.. but for now this is enough..
Monday, December 7, 2009
back to the old stuff
back to the old stuff....
sometimes... no I lie .. often i wonder about human dynamics ..
you may wonder what i wonder about ..
I wonder a lot i think a lot .. maybe to much..
I believe like a lot of other ppl that i have a fair judge of other characters,,,,
But do we ever?
no this is nothing ominous.. just some questioning on the nature of the human kind, where do our, their and other allegiances lie?
maybe allegiances is a strong word for what i want to say? maybe it should rather be re-phrased as mental awareness of those around us. No before you wonder, this is not a depressive diatribe that is developing. this is rather a questioing of human nature and how we as humans experience it from the outside or rather as an observer of a moment (wanted to say an?), how are our perceptions built, how are they formed. To return to an old thread can we ever really ever be objective about anything, let alone people and their motives and thoughts? Can we ever stand outside and look in and ever understand the complexity within base don the exterior facade or representation that we/you, they or them portray to the world.
Within the silent world of the intelectual, I wonder why?
What is it that the intellectual, or the external view thereof hold such anguish and questioning in those who feel they are not an intellectual equal. In the bible it is said we are all granted talents, strangely as a child i always believed them to be coins? Strange thing that? coins depicted as coins? But i ask with proverbial tears in my eyes? what makes us different?
how if we stare through the cold reality of truth that, what we are is not enough? Why is it that perceptions are so slanted against that which is the reality of the experience or life we, they them, us you view when looking at the person in front of you? We stand un-affronted and look at those around us and create images and perceptions of what it is that people are...
WE stand WE look we perceive and conclude with little view of the reality, yes this is human.. we can but only view life as an image or rather a reflection of our life in the terms of the reflection we see that is not ours.. we judge, we view, we believe we understand.. When did the reality and the individual disappear? When did the value and the integral nature of the individual fade into the milieu of society, most probably long before me and long after me. Our perceptions of relaity are tainted by that which we believe and experience and often we drive our perceptions into a place which is not real. Yes there is good within, there is bad within, there is life within. we tend to humanise the experience, where the experience is not which we perceive? We read markers and flags that society plant on the hill that we call humans. On this hill we crucify like that which was biblically documented, no this is not a christian diabtribe, but rather a comment on the society we see and experience and live..
The markers are there, the experience is there, the impact is however unknown to us or those around us, and even less is the impact of the perception or experience thereof. The flags stand there high and waving or fluttering in the wind of the life we are or experience. How often do we understand? And no this is not excluding me as the observer at this point, but as the recipient and the observee ( yes maybe i should have used observed, but i liked that word more) ..
All that remains to be said is that all we have is the experience and the interaction thereof and how we interact and represent in our minds eye..
you may be confused, read it again.. this is not a finger pointing as I may have done in the past, but rather an observation on human nature.. WE are, WE Observe, we view and in the same light we are Observed. Where does this go. Confusion and misunderstanding relating to the nature of humanity. Is this a good or bad thing? I am not sure, but this is just the nature of humanity.
you are most probably asking what the frigin hell am i trying to say.. it should be clear if it isnt, then it isnt. no more will i say for now. I may say more later. But this is a multifaceted thing, this thing we call life and living as a human. Bound by the humanity of our existence, bound by the observation and observed, bound by the interaction, bound by the nature of the mind which we all know just to well is not what we think it is..
enough said for now :-)
sometimes... no I lie .. often i wonder about human dynamics ..
you may wonder what i wonder about ..
I wonder a lot i think a lot .. maybe to much..
I believe like a lot of other ppl that i have a fair judge of other characters,,,,
But do we ever?
no this is nothing ominous.. just some questioning on the nature of the human kind, where do our, their and other allegiances lie?
maybe allegiances is a strong word for what i want to say? maybe it should rather be re-phrased as mental awareness of those around us. No before you wonder, this is not a depressive diatribe that is developing. this is rather a questioing of human nature and how we as humans experience it from the outside or rather as an observer of a moment (wanted to say an?), how are our perceptions built, how are they formed. To return to an old thread can we ever really ever be objective about anything, let alone people and their motives and thoughts? Can we ever stand outside and look in and ever understand the complexity within base don the exterior facade or representation that we/you, they or them portray to the world.
Within the silent world of the intelectual, I wonder why?
What is it that the intellectual, or the external view thereof hold such anguish and questioning in those who feel they are not an intellectual equal. In the bible it is said we are all granted talents, strangely as a child i always believed them to be coins? Strange thing that? coins depicted as coins? But i ask with proverbial tears in my eyes? what makes us different?
how if we stare through the cold reality of truth that, what we are is not enough? Why is it that perceptions are so slanted against that which is the reality of the experience or life we, they them, us you view when looking at the person in front of you? We stand un-affronted and look at those around us and create images and perceptions of what it is that people are...
WE stand WE look we perceive and conclude with little view of the reality, yes this is human.. we can but only view life as an image or rather a reflection of our life in the terms of the reflection we see that is not ours.. we judge, we view, we believe we understand.. When did the reality and the individual disappear? When did the value and the integral nature of the individual fade into the milieu of society, most probably long before me and long after me. Our perceptions of relaity are tainted by that which we believe and experience and often we drive our perceptions into a place which is not real. Yes there is good within, there is bad within, there is life within. we tend to humanise the experience, where the experience is not which we perceive? We read markers and flags that society plant on the hill that we call humans. On this hill we crucify like that which was biblically documented, no this is not a christian diabtribe, but rather a comment on the society we see and experience and live..
The markers are there, the experience is there, the impact is however unknown to us or those around us, and even less is the impact of the perception or experience thereof. The flags stand there high and waving or fluttering in the wind of the life we are or experience. How often do we understand? And no this is not excluding me as the observer at this point, but as the recipient and the observee ( yes maybe i should have used observed, but i liked that word more) ..
All that remains to be said is that all we have is the experience and the interaction thereof and how we interact and represent in our minds eye..
you may be confused, read it again.. this is not a finger pointing as I may have done in the past, but rather an observation on human nature.. WE are, WE Observe, we view and in the same light we are Observed. Where does this go. Confusion and misunderstanding relating to the nature of humanity. Is this a good or bad thing? I am not sure, but this is just the nature of humanity.
you are most probably asking what the frigin hell am i trying to say.. it should be clear if it isnt, then it isnt. no more will i say for now. I may say more later. But this is a multifaceted thing, this thing we call life and living as a human. Bound by the humanity of our existence, bound by the observation and observed, bound by the interaction, bound by the nature of the mind which we all know just to well is not what we think it is..
enough said for now :-)
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