sweet smelling memories

another day, another existential crisis survived, forward, onward we go. Another year older and another pre-birthday existential crisis survived, yes twice.

I have to start somewhere else other than now, I am transported back to another time and place. I slowly sip my lapsang souchon (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lapsang_souchong), now not then. it transports me back to a time when I still shared an Office
with frojo, no not Frodo or bilbo, But Hes and frojo joubert

The tea has a fragrance that is not easily not mistaken for Dunhill's early morning pipe tobacco (http://pipesmagazine.com/python/pipe-news/dunhill-early-morning-pipe-pipe-tobacco-reviews/), it has a smell and taste and presence that is so reminiscent of this tobacco.

The tea smells and tastes like something out of a forest fire, some people think it smells a bit like bacon? to me it smells a little like a forest fire, this tobacco and a whole lot of memories.

And that tomorrow i think will be the first day of my once a week raw food day, and partly cannot decide if I am allowed coffee or not on raw food day? I realise that it is a slippery slope? but if i am not allowed coffee can i have tea and if not can i have milk to eat with raw oats?

still thinking about this one and why I am doing it and what the parameters of this notion will be?

but think tomorrow I will just go hard core and have to go tea and coffee and all free? I wonder if I will survive?

on googling, or well searching on google I discovered the following in the first anecdotal website i read :
"Researchers who studied the impact of a raw food diet found that participants had low cholesterol and triglycerides. They also had a vitamin B12 deficiency. This finding is consistent with another study of raw foodists in Finland. B12 is found naturally only in animal products. It is critical to nerve and red blood cell development. Deficiencies can lead to anemia and neurological impairment." (http://www.webmd.com/food-recipes/guide/raw-food-diet?page=2)
sounds bad

so on day 1, all started well till pumkie made the perfect Roast chicken for supper, so maybe have to try raw breakfast and lunch for a few days to compensate and do better future planning next time
:-)

( as a side note I have managed 3 3/4 days?, not sure if that counts) .. trying to ramp up for next week.

Oh well another day on the windy isle's

I saw that unity is really a pain on the new ubuntu desktop/ well not such a new concept.. but my first actual usage of it..
suppose we all need change else we become complacent.

and we have to strive to be richer, read a good blog article by Gareth cliff, who even though he can be harder than nails and outspoken more often than not, he has managed to write something that did not illicit to much negative commentary in the blogosphere comments, well as at yesterday when i read it .. (http://www.garethcliff.com/blog/?p=366)

have to appologise for some of the lack of in line html links, but have taken to writing these blogs in evernote now in plain textish rtf like , as i can keep content and sync over the web, yes i know blogspot and all the other blogs and google docs and and can share documents in html, evernote seems to work for me.

and something i noticed that REALLY sucks is the last blog i carefully laid out using the html editor in the blogger web page, but it poked the formatting when i published .. that really sucks .. might have to get a new template or something.. or not .. Ok i figured it out can do hyperlinks in my notes.. my slackness

back to reality and listening to jimi Hendrix "if 6 was 9" while doing HR reporting for a customer .. man that is obtuse ..

Ok so this is taking longer than anticipated...

I have to question some things thought, 

who will hold the candle bright

and lead the us back to the promised land

somewhere in time and location

we wait for the sound of chikins and the buzzin of da bees

the squelch of mud between my toes

the feeling of freedom as the cold wind bites at my lungs

don't be scared don't be afraid

the darkness shimmers off the ground

i stand staring off into time wondering

do i go forward or backwards

filled with doubt

Oh well time to go fishing, according to someone on the inter~blades, apparently Joseph Monniger who says "i go fishing not to find myself but to lose myself" 

interesting author, also know for this  “We read not to escape, but to go deeper into life.” 

definitely have to put him on my wish list
Was thinking maybe i should post my to do list onto my Blog, maybe it will move some of the things from todo to  done ;-)  Strangely i seem to be filled with enthusiasm, but these long winter nights and dark morning and early sunsets really seem to put that enthusiasm to rest.. 
oh well enough for the short term, more rambling tomorrow