back to the old stuff

back to the old stuff....

sometimes... no I lie .. often i wonder about human dynamics ..
you may wonder what i wonder about ..

I wonder a lot i think a lot .. maybe to much..

I believe like a lot of other ppl that i have a fair judge of other characters,,,,

But do we ever?

no this is nothing ominous.. just some questioning on the nature of the human kind, where do our, their and other allegiances lie?

maybe allegiances is a strong word for what i want to say? maybe it should rather be re-phrased as mental awareness of those around us. No before you wonder, this is not a depressive diatribe that is developing. this is rather a questioing of human nature and how we as humans experience it from the outside or rather as an observer of a moment (wanted to say an?), how are our perceptions built, how are they formed. To return to an old thread can we ever really ever be objective about anything, let alone people and their motives and thoughts? Can we ever stand outside and look in and ever understand the complexity within base don the exterior facade or representation that we/you, they or them portray to the world.

Within the silent world of the intelectual, I wonder why?

What is it that the intellectual, or the external view thereof hold such anguish and questioning in those who feel they are not an intellectual equal. In the bible it is said we are all granted talents, strangely as a child i always believed them to be coins? Strange thing that? coins depicted as coins? But i ask with proverbial tears in my eyes? what makes us different?

how if we stare through the cold reality of truth that, what we are is not enough? Why is it that perceptions are so slanted against that which is the reality of the experience or life we, they them, us you view when looking at the person in front of you? We stand un-affronted and look at those around us and create images and perceptions of what it is that people are...

WE stand WE look we perceive and conclude with little view of the reality, yes this is human.. we can but only view life as an image or rather a reflection of our life in the terms of the reflection we see that is not ours.. we judge, we view, we believe we understand.. When did the reality and the individual disappear? When did the value and the integral nature of the individual fade into the milieu of society, most probably long before me and long after me. Our perceptions of relaity are tainted by that which we believe and experience and often we drive our perceptions into a place which is not real. Yes there is good within, there is bad within, there is life within. we tend to humanise the experience, where the experience is not which we perceive? We read markers and flags that society plant on the hill that we call humans. On this hill we crucify like that which was biblically documented, no this is not a christian diabtribe, but rather a comment on the society we see and experience and live..
The markers are there, the experience is there, the impact is however unknown to us or those around us, and even less is the impact of the perception or experience thereof. The flags stand there high and waving or fluttering in the wind of the life we are or experience. How often do we understand? And no this is not excluding me as the observer at this point, but as the recipient and the observee ( yes maybe i should have used observed, but i liked that word more) ..

All that remains to be said is that all we have is the experience and the interaction thereof and how we interact and represent in our minds eye..

you may be confused, read it again.. this is not a finger pointing as I may have done in the past, but rather an observation on human nature.. WE are, WE Observe, we view and in the same light we are Observed. Where does this go. Confusion and misunderstanding relating to the nature of humanity. Is this a good or bad thing? I am not sure, but this is just the nature of humanity.

you are most probably asking what the frigin hell am i trying to say.. it should be clear if it isnt, then it isnt. no more will i say for now. I may say more later. But this is a multifaceted thing, this thing we call life and living as a human. Bound by the humanity of our existence, bound by the observation and observed, bound by the interaction, bound by the nature of the mind which we all know just to well is not what we think it is..

enough said for now :-)