I must admit over the last few days the melodrama has been rife in the internal ramblings of my mind.. I have been pondering a lot ..
two friends of ours have lost their houses and almost everything due to the turn in the economy.. me considering then that i should be happy due to the fact that i still have a lot and have lots to be happy for did not ward off a wave of deep seated chronic depression.. no worries it is passing.. but what i was feeling is merely a mirror of what a lot of people are thinking at this stage.. the hamster wheel is turning faster and faster and taking more of our time due to the insidious traffic and traveling the bulk of us are subjected to on a bidaily basis..
We have to question the value and context of our lives as a whole in this rapidly spiralling economy and lifestyle we are all forced to partake in.
But at the same time are caught in the juxtaposition of perspective, when us the lucky ones still have jobs and cars to travel to work .. well most of us..
when the bulk of our countries populace has to travel in overcrouded trains, busses and insane taxi's .. when all of us know people who are directly and indirectly affected by the insane financial meltdown and are losing so much.. but this just makes it ahrder for us to digest the reality of our personal situations..
when we should be gaining some solace in our own comfortable lifestyles..
Does it make us bad to question the quality of daily exsistence when there are so many with much less and harder lives..
Brings us back to perspective on life, how often we are drawn into our own mental enclaves where we wallow in our own personal crisises and feel sorry for ourselves.. well maybe not all of you.. many of you may be able to remain in more chearfull demeaner .. Bringing me back to my previous questions on objectivity and subjectivity.. is it ever possible.. are we ever able to be totally objective about the thing closest to us .. our lives.. it is so much easier to look ouside viewing the world through the scope and view everything around us and view the abject poverty crime and unhappiness and suffering and in total humaness not be able to view our lives in context to this, Is this possibly becasue this outside of our real context.. how absoloute are our lives, how much do we live within or without society..
onto more cheerfull things .. USA beat spain in the soccer .. strange how a super power can be viewed as an underdog with a different perspective on life ..? very strange the way we rationalize things? now only for bafana bafana to overcome the brazillians? is this in any way possible who knows..
this lead me to a discussion I had to day with some of the people i work with .. and we questioned if we are actually a nation of chokers or not? Does our society breed a nation of people who can see it all the way to the end of a struggle? we have fantastic fight, often giving up at the finish line.. just not being able to cross the finishing line.. tripping at the last step.
But other than that so where to now .. how do we bootstrap ourselves into happiness. is it possible...
maybe with a healthy dose of objectivity in its truest sense and a conserted effort to overcome our internal deamons we should be able to have a more focussed and possitive outlook on life .. but maybe not.. maybe those 'clever' brain shrinkers and their associates are all right and it is all about chemicals.. how often or not there are those who think and those who dont ..
what does this difference mean? who knows .. i am not thinking now :-)
on a sane note.. if in anyway ever possible can we forge forward into the darkness seeking light where there is apparently none?
by clear reference and perspective on what we have and what we ahve achieved sic! what ever that means itis possible to destroy those feelings of unhappiness and self pity and convert them back into an enthusiasm and movement forwards .. starting to sound a bit like a deepak chopra lecture .. now that is Sad..
I m just considering where to now .. no not at any level other than my mind .. our mind is the vesel life creates the chemical journey that we experience, augmented by the fine wine dying on the vine .. or in a more socially sensitive way .. or politically correct or whatever ..
And to all those sceptics and evil others no .. this is not a MLC .. :-)\\
but just a seasonal deep introspective retrospective subjective existential crisis :-)
Later dudes
and dudedesses
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